Are you regret of what you are now?

Dunno since when I started to touch the computer.... the "so call" technology where you can get in touch with the world... no matter where you are now...

Recall back to school times, where we do not use coms at all... perhaps our generation now is better where almost everyone using coms... where what I c from fb...

So dunno since when I started to read others blogs, so I started to read of others stories of their life, so I realised I might have able to get better than I have now.

So maybe I can strive for my future back when I was 17? 18? instead of what I'm now?

Not saying I do not happy / satisfied of what I'm now but rather I might like those I saw where I could have continue study (perhaps overseas) and having a full time student life... enjoing what a 18 years old girl should did. Gosh I was a "factory girl" while I was 18! I must admit I wanna escape from where I was while I was 18. I do not want to be what I was I want to run out of there... but seems it's not the most ideal result I got... *____*

Or maybe I was already not that brave! I was not daring to do anything. I was shy. I was isolated.

Once my ambition was to become a SQ flight stewardess. I was so happy I got such "great target" and was really happily filled in to my sort of school materials... I remembered what "flght stewardess" called in malay... hah.. however I failed. I was shy. I missed n nos. of interview of simply can't open my mouth to talk when interviewing. I was just easily showed up my super nervous face to interviewer so of course... failed. So now I'm considered to old and I missed those opportunity to become what I wished to and open my wings to fly...!

I was always thinking why should I had enoying my school life while I was suppose to and not like now to study and working?

So I'm a HR personnel now. Am I that suitable to be a HR? To be the one who can handle HR or should say - HUMAN RESOURCE? Not I think. perhaps it's never easy to be a HR. People will choose to like or even hate you. People back step you or just simply ignoring you and by pass to higher authority, with this I should say NO respect at all.. Or should I say is the management problem? Is the management made the staff thought they could do so? Or the management simply too free that they wanna take care of everything? Or they do not trust me at all? Or only this management will do so? Maybe others outside different? Console huh...

I'm tired.

I'm exhausted.

I hate those made me hates them much

I do not wanna continue like this.

I always says I wanna start my business..

Buddha....

God.....

Bless me...

Of course, I must kambateh n jiayou! to make it happen!