阿信生日快乐!

祝最亲爱的阿信主唱大人...

生日快乐...!!! 迟了一天... 不过也是我最真诚的祝福.

最爱最爱的阿信.. 愿你天天快乐, 继续摇滚!!

Empty...

Feeling empty recently..

Company had some problem... everything gonna slow down until it gets settle.. worked here nearly 2 years, no recognition, dun even think of increment.. sianz.. see others like threaten to get what their want or else they will be bla bla bla... hate it but it might works for me too?

Personal matters which really bothered me much much much... Hope I could settle it soon and have new life ahead..

A little idea of what i can do for my future instead of working for others for the rest of my life.. this must be done little by little, step by step, wish me luck and success ahead!

Been just moved.. miss my old house and still adapting to new house. Adapting to the environment, the neighbors, the house, packing, unpacking, thinking where to put the stuffs... busy busy busy...

But still felt empty... Why?

Mayday Mayday...

Tonight is Singapore Hit Awards... Mayday is coming too... So they are now in Singapore and we are breathing in same air...

But...

I didn't go Singapore Hit Awards... haix... very sad.. really wish to go but xiaoyu not able to go..

oh when can I see Mayday again?

痞子英雄。。

My recent activities.. watch 痞子英雄

I would say, this drama had really impress me a lot. It is absolutely not another ordinary show from Taiwan which focus on 谈情说爱.

痞子英雄@ Wikipedia:

在這個真實與謊言難以分辨的時代，我們正處在光明與黑暗相生相剋的世界裡。 光亮的地方，未必不會被黑暗的勢力所吞噬，而混沌不明的幽微處，常常就是光明最根源的力量。

痞子英雄，就是一個關於光明與黑暗的故事。 痞子與英雄，正是兩個不斷與黑暗對抗，同時點燃光明的兩個警察。 擺脫過去華文警匪的沉重模式；讓明亮輕快的陳述與海灣城市的架構，把看起來的黑暗，都隱藏在光明與燦爛之中。 等著兩個微小的刑警，憑藉著心中唯一的正義，維持著這臨海城市、美好而光亮的清晨。

The below sentence which really impress me:

當警察不只是警察，黑幫不只是黑幫，好與壞，虛構與真實。 你可以繼續相信你所選擇的，也可以用足夠的勇氣，穿越天堂，直奔一個良善與光明的地方。

Yeah it is right, when the truth is no longer true, the mistake is no longer wrong.. the right or wrong, it's the matter of how we view it? We can continue believe whatever we believe.. we can brave enough to break through the barriers.. but who to judge whether it is right or wrong? it's a bit "chim" for me.. hehe..

The show just won 5 awards from the recent 2009年台灣第44屆金鐘獎 including best actor. However too bad 仔仔 didn't won the best actor (I didn't mean 趙又廷 don't deserve the award just that I'm more side 仔仔 hehe..) which he really did a good job in this show!

So friends go watch 痞子英雄 now.. GREAT SHOW!

I Hate What I'm Now.

I'm really

Fed Up
Pissed Off
Tired... ing ing ingggggggggggggg

I am like getting fed up pissed off and felt tired everyday. EVERYDAY! Why I work at this stupid company? Is that what my fate is?

To see how nasty ppls are here, how they gang together and back step you? How they creating problem and denied whatever they have done? How they "kiasu" till scolded you back for too "follow up" on your job which reminds them that they are doing their job and just gossiping around. got work no work eng eng seng seng wait 1st of every month to draw salary? To see how's the effect of "world of mouth" can spread the news till the stupid nasty ppls twist the truth become your fault? And even your boss "gang" with those stupid idiot side them said that's your fault too just because she wants to be friendly with those ppls so people will not hate her too?? To see your boss knows very well company is in big fucking problem however he just stand aside to see you die do nothing or just hide aside?

What the FUCK is the world now? Doing anything as they wish? What I did wrong? For being busy body of "follow up" my job? Or I'm doing so much for my job?

So when I'm doing my job follow up chasing for dateline I'm kind of busy body and I'm doing too fast than you?

So when I slow down take my time take your time don't care wait till last minute then I'm damn stupid slow and do nothing and start suspicious whether what I did in office deserve or equivalent to salary earn?

BIG damn FUCK Up! I'm just like coming home EVERYDAY with fed up angry pissed off where those idiot happily gossip spread the news and wants the whole world know what she did is not wrong twist the truth till fucking hell become my fault!

old words says: 总有一天，你会有报应的！

Chinese Zodiac said rooster will be SUPER 旺this year?? 有贵人相助？not right AT ALL!

Disappointed!

I Hate What I'm NOW!

長大之後

大人們都會說：

（當你踏入青春期。。）

妹妹啊，你有沒有男朋友啊？

（當你踏入適婚時期。。）

妹妹啊，你何時結婚啊？

（當你結婚後。。）

妹妹啊，你有寶寶了嗎？

（當你有寶寶後。。）

妹妹啊，幾時生第二，三，四個寶寶啊？

大人們啊，真的太可愛了！

Busy Friday...

I had a busy Friday today. 

Angry day...

Busy day...

Tired day...

計劃永遠趕不上變化。。

All things change even through as planned. Didn't did much work today as not chance to discussed and finalised... very worried about the audit next week.. I don't wanna be the one who affect the whole progress.

Had a event in the afternoon which arranged every year.. Yeah Deepavali celebration.. No Raya celebration but Deepavali oh... I really suspect my boss adore Indian more than others... 女人的自覺是很准的。。hehe.. ah this is not important lah...

And same didn't knock off at 5pm sharp. waiting for some delivery and finish some work first... 

.

..

...

....

..... then then then

I went to met a friend who long time no see... think about one year plus..? She came with her son and hubby... follow her hubby here cos of business trip. "One day" trip therefore only can meet her tonight... 

Me and my colleague knock off about 18.14 (I saw the clock when we left the building) then drop the girls at bus interchange and shoot to Orchard right after... BUT again again again PIE jam like hell. Super terrible! and what more... there is accident on the way to Orchard! WTF?? I spend almost an hour to reach Orchard! And I do not know where is the entrance of car park at ION drive one big round from Orchard road and pass by Meritus Mandarin, Cineleisure, Taka, Wisma Atrium and finally I'm here... ION!

After parked my car, run down to Basement... looking for B2, lost again! I went to B1, then escalator to B4, WTF again! then up to B3, and B2 and....... finally I found the restaurant.... what a tired trip!

I was then finally met my long time no see friend and her son! 初次見面的小朋友，好。。。可愛哦，而且好乖 哦。So adorable.. We had long talk... 天南地北.. traveling, watch, cloths, bags, baby bla bla bla... but then she have to go as it's baby sleep time..

Ended with a day satisfactory ... Hope to see you soon Cat! You owe me a CD.. remember to sent ya...

I need a Vacation

I need a break and a vacation!

Paris
France
Japan

Whatever please give me a vacation!

And...

I wanna go Taiwan again again again!! Please... Winter Taiwan Mayday concert at Kao-hsiung.. I want to go Taiwan Taiwan Taiwan!!

。。。

I wish I want to I have to:

1. Clear all 烦事
2. Start my degree course
3. Attend Web Design course
4. Create my "dream" web page - No no... no personal web page nor blog page..
5. Start to implement my "new Life"
6. Accomplish it!

烦死人了！

I'm really not happy recently...

Work wise, personal matters wise.. NOT happy

I... was working in a company which I felt comfortable and happy as I have nice colleagues and of course nice boss.

可惜，好景不长... things change like hell.. Boss suddenly change his "nice character" like sacked staff, scream and shout whenever he comes in. But this is still ok since ang moh temper just "come and go" fast.

Colleagues, I would say they are monkeys. No no... they are monster. They are just so stupid and 白痴！For just 1.5 years I joined this company the whole company split into few "gangs" which you hate me, I hate you.

And what most funny, my company recently just recruit a girl who assist in one of the department. She is the most 白痴 girl I saw since I work. Maybe I should 套某人的话 “好白痴好天真”. Did you see someone “贼喊捉贼” in real life? It seems like only can see it through the monitor but it just on air in front of me yesterday! She just screamed and shouted and scolded my colleague and the next min she walked back to her boss the same screamed and shouted and the next min she just cried! Wa sai so drama!

Then.. then.. you know what happened? She just go downstairs cried in front of the guys and complaint! Wa lau shit this kind of girl! I heard about her "dirty act" many times for only less than 1 month she joined the company! (surprise right? she just joined my company less than 1 month! However I have no energy and of course no interest to bother since this is her personal life and she choose her own!

What I unexpected is, why there is such person like this? So what she trying to do? Is she trying to act she is very 可怜 in front of others and people will sympathy her and let all "guys" think we are here just evil created so many problems and bully new girl! Wow that's great idea to sabotage us however I would say this is absolutely 可笑和可怜. Fake people like can survive for how long? 假面貌终究回揭开，这道理很老套可是非常有理啊！Maybe I'm wrong but just I can't tolerate...

The company just become very horrible and I really no enthusiastic to work anymore.. It was such a nice company to stay with but it now become "hell". I know every company the same, politics, nasty people... haix what to do..

Personal matters... which really bother me a lot. I really really wish it can be solve very very soon then I can have new life and fulfill my dream... step by steps... Wish me "Dreams comes true!"

累了，也厌倦了。

我对现况。。 感觉： 非常累了，也非常厌倦。。

引述五月天的疯狂世界：

如果說了後悔　是不是一切就能倒退
回憶多麼美　活著多麼狼狽
為什麼這個世界　總要叫人嚐傷悲
我不能了解　也不想了解
我好想好想飛　逃離這個瘋狂世界
那麼多苦　那麼多累　那麼多莫名的淚水
我好想好想飛　逃離這個瘋狂的世界
如果是你　發現了我　也別將我挽回
想了你一整夜　再也想不起你的臉
你是一種感覺　寫在夏夜晚風裡面
青春是挽不回的水　轉眼消失在指尖
用力的浪費　再用力的後悔

我真的好想好想飛
我再也不想为了生活或生存而拼命的打拼
我能不能没有负担地，
好象朋友们在美丽的四季国家，边工作边游走这国家。。
这也是我的梦想 - exploring the world
到这我想去生活的国家，再回到大学生活，
当个快乐学生，打工，上课，跟好友打屁，“吹水”。。


我能吗？我可以吗？
如果說了後悔　是不是一切就能倒退？

DAMN IT!!

I'm working in a very.. weird company.

How to say..

Band msn.

Band youtube.

Find many stupid reason to block this block that.

And today, suddenly received an email saying that ppl are cheating from facebook and other social networking therefore will block all social networking website. Reason being: It's important to keep the company network safe and secure.

Damn it!

WTF??

What is it related to company so call "safe & secure" while the networking is nothing to do with company? Even when there are idiots outside want to cheat those stupid social networking users, and what is it lost to the company??

藉口！

I also have a very F*** boss. I don't know what she is thinking either.

We are all being human but I didn't think of a women can be this evil. I had been joined this company for more than 1 year, no confirmation, don't even think about increment.

Don't even think the big boss will remember you. Yes the big boss is 貴人事忙 so no reason to blame him right, I go and ask for my rights and deserve from my "direct boss" - the evil so you think what she said?

1st time - "okay, I will speak to boss."

Of cos, fake one lah... 敷衍！

2nd time - "hmm, I think I have to "freeze" all staff salary this year, you know what's the situation now"

Wa sai I was like getting worried for the company that the economy crisis really affected company or what.. But you know what happen next?

All others colleagues getting increment like hell!

5%?

No.

10%

NO.

Is freaking more than 50%-200%!!!

WTF again?

Am I so useless till I don't deserve to get any recognition from the company?

But why I still receiving emails from the so call very big boss "Well done, you did great job, keep it up bla bla bla"

I'm getting fed up.

disappointing.

Now, this evil boss have 新搞作。

Now, we all have to so call switch back to 8-5pm working time - yes while I'm working 9-6pm for the past 1 year plus..

Yes she is doing something fishy.

I would say she is gonna said "since you all work 8-5pm so there are colleague who can take you, so you have to return company car."

AND >> The big boss is sooooo doted and let her do all these nonsenses!

WALAO!!

Believe me or not... this gonna happen sooner or later.

Did you met such person before? God bless then.

我需要快乐

super stress recently.. I should have say all the while..

work stress.. home also stress.. everything stress..

colleagues bullies.. no matter how strong how tough you are.. the is still a collapse.

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。
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好友突然间飞到香港，令我超级佩服她。佩服她的勇气，她的坚持。我也好想那样，随心所欲的做我想做的事。

我需要快乐，需要开心的事情。。快给我快乐。还有所有烦人的事情，赶快消失！

我要快乐！！

Powerful Words

I learned 8 powerful words today.

面对，接受，处理，放下。

终生受用。

本来啊。。

本来啊。。
我和小羽现在应该在香港。。我们的香港之行。。 我们的五月天红馆演唱会之行。。
好可惜没能去成。
该死的疾病，还有烦人的事情。。

好懊恼啊！
我真的好想好想去啊。红馆~超大的！在里面观赏演唱会一定很过瘾吧。。
还有可以和小羽一起旅行，超想念小羽的。。

本来啊。。
我应该不是现在的我吧。
我应该在做我喜欢且开心的事情吧。
我应该会过的很好吧。
我~应该很幸福而且是超级幸福！

本来啊。。 本来。。

如果可以重来，我肯定可以做得很好。肯定！
不过，后悔于事无补吧。应该 - 向前看，向前走。。？

放肆

在你最低落时，最快的痊愈方法莫过于。。鼓励？激励？还是安慰？我~~ 不知道。。

不过，我有~~我最爱的五月天！
五月天的音乐，五月天的才华，往往在我快要放弃时。。 出现了。。

放肆。。一个嚣张的字眼，不过，也是我内心深处最想要的吧。

如果我狠狠地放肆一次，追求我的理想，我要的，我就不是现在的我吧？Maybe..

五月天的放肆：

想太多又想太重的夢想 還不如乾脆不多想
每一個險惡的浪 都會有浪花綻放 我決定邊衝邊欣賞

牛頓要我們都活在地上 偏偏我就想要飛翔
要掙脫命運綑綁 要推翻柏林圍牆 要站上巨人的肩膀

夢想永遠是逆向 一路都有人阻擋
人們說的荒唐卻是我的心中的天堂 ！

就放肆愛放肆追 放肆去闖 放肆的大鬧一場
不能原諒 如果很多年後 我還是這樣

就放肆愛放肆追 放肆去闖 放肆是我的信仰
再不去闖 夢想永遠只會 是一個夢想

哥倫布只要有一顆星光 就膽敢橫越大西洋
我還有一把吉他 我還有一群死黨 為什麼還不大聲唱

達爾文假設生命是戰場 就讓我基因不投降
把傷痕裝滿手掌 把鼓聲裝滿心臟 把歌聲裝滿肺活量

夢想永遠是逆光 只有剪影的模樣
會有什麼細節 什麼體驗？ 不要只猜想！

很有道理吧！

再不去闖 夢想永遠只會 是一個夢想

想。。

在发生许许多多非常不开心及悔不当初的坏事时。。 我想，信仰很重要。
我是佛教徒，我相信佛祖会保佑我。
相信，我可以？相信，未来？
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。。
。。。

最近想了很多，只是不知道领悟了什么了吗。。？
当已发生的事情已发生了，那我们是不是应该勇敢的面对呢？
又或者，当你拼命的补救过错时，偏偏这个关键时刻，这个关键人物狠狠地推翻所有承诺，再在后面狠狠地桶你一刀，那这时候你该作何反应呢？

人生，就是不是这样呢？

我又在想，能不能所有的坏事赶快远离。。然后我离开，去一个跟天国最接近的地方。。？
我好像去不丹，香格里拉，英国。。欧洲。。去一个离开烟硝城市，宁静且快乐，不为了任何利益斗争而拚个你死我活的地方。。？

有可能吗？我可以做到吗？

...

Super long time didn't blog...

Been many things happened.. happy things... not happy. sad. I shall fullstop for sucks thing. Wanna and wish all unhappy go go go away please..

Lots of sharing but shall blog more while everything is... fullstop.

Happy things.. please continue.............................

Happy "Niu" Year!!

Happy "Niu" Year!!

I wish myself the "BEST" of the "BEST" this year!

Get out of bad things,

好运快快来！

I'm F***ing angry now!

I dun know how to express my feeling now.

I'm just F***ing angry now!

I felt disappointed.

I felt tired.

I felt really damn not happy.

because of..

one f***ing fat women

If you are trying to control.. please go home control your husband n your kids! I think that's y you never mentioned your hubby. because he is si beh pissed off with you attitude and what you had done!

If you think you had too little to control, please go request more from who is above you not to come n plays us out!

If you are trying to twist the truth, please ensure there is no one who will not says out. Because this will only make the truth because more Truth and you become the liar.. n.. more ugly!

If you going to announce something which everyone must comply, please make yourself as a sample and not like now you doing what as you like but we all here like toys for you to play!

If you think I don't dare, you are wrong! If you think you are now under one above all, you are wrong! Do you believe 风水轮流转？

I just don't understand why this world have such f***ing ppls and there exist anywhere? WHat you trying to gain? power? authority? or you wants to show how capable you are? how productive you are? or how great job you been doing? How much lie you want to say?

You make my days worst n worst.. I can't believe this!!

Please can you get out of this place? You go far far away and I believe we all wish you to...... GO!! F*** OFFFFFF!!!

Bye! Never see you again!

I Hate You!!

You..! I really hate you!

I had tried my best to do my part but I must admit that I might lack of concentration, sometimes.. but you make me getting frustrated.. more n more..

You could be smiling in front of me, playing around, act like super nice.. but you could be back steping me behind.. I don't know.. but from others.. I know, you are really sucker!

I don't think I should trust you, I don't think I should get closer with you, I don't think I should talk too much with you.. You just make me think you are really gonna betray me some day..

in anyway, I don't like you.. Please don't step in to my life.. I think I just need to face you when there must or else.. please step away from me!

心痛lah..

after a 狂欢 at Xmas party with bestie.. my bag become like this..


look at the handler stain..


again the stain... F***

Dd bought me this bag only few days before Xmas eve, (*wink*).. and that was my first time carrying this bag.. so xin tong.. tried to put under the sun thought the color might get even a bit but no use..

first time so sayang my bag.. probably from Dd bah.. (hmm sorry my other bags)

however heard the sales said the leather color will gets darker after a while...

well..

離開地球表面，好嗎？

Perhaps I should 離開地球表面 huh..?
However I super super love this song! The lyrics is simply so meaningful.

Enjoy the song and read the lyric..

Mayday rocks!

五月天-離開地球表面

丟掉手錶 丟外套 丟掉背包 再丟嘮叨
丟掉電視 丟電腦 丟掉大腦 再丟煩惱
衝啥大 衝啥小 衝啥都有人唱反調
恨得多 愛的少
只想越跳越瘋 越跳越高 把地球甩掉

一顆心噗通噗通地狂跳 一瞬間煩惱煩惱煩惱全忘掉
我再也不要 再也不要 委屈自己一秒
一顆心噗通噗通地狂跳 一瞬間煩惱煩惱煩惱全忘掉
我甩掉地球 地球甩掉 只要越跳越高

丟掉手錶 丟外套 丟掉背包 再丟嘮叨
丟掉電視 丟電腦 丟掉大腦 再丟煩惱
野心大 膽子小 跳舞還要靠別人教
恨得多 愛的少
只想越跳越瘋 越跳越高 把地球甩掉

一顆心噗通噗通地狂跳 一瞬間煩惱煩惱煩惱全忘掉
我再也不要 再也不要 委屈自己一秒
一顆心噗通噗通地狂跳 一瞬間煩惱煩惱煩惱全忘掉
我甩掉地球 地球甩掉 只要越跳越高

我甩掉地球 地球甩掉 只要越跳越高 come on (jump)

我好想你們 - 五月天!

我最愛的五月天，我突然好想你們！
應該說，我每一刻都好想你們。

五月天- 突然好想你

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
绞痛着不平息

最怕突然听到你的消息
想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲
变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你
带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品

我们那麽甜 那麽美
那麽相信
那麽疯 那麽热烈的曾经

为何我们
还是要奔向各自的幸福
和遗憾中老去

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚
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Random thoughts..

Has been very busy this 2 weeks..

paper works, payroll, reports, reports, reports, paper works paper works... it's.... BUSY lah..

office gonna moving to new place.. maybe Feb maybe Mar.. when...? I don't really wish to move as the current office is in good location, nearer to my home, eating place.. new office is huge, but don't know why need so big space leh..

economy recession... getting worried now... dunno what's gonna happen next but hopefully everything will be ok soon.

my continuing studies.. school didn't enroll this intake.. However, they are gonna to offer me a seat for next intake. Got to reply by mid of this month. I still haven't make up my mind... whether should take up or not.

Dd still thinking whether he shld quit his job.. but don't what he can do if he decide to leave his current position. and the market now is really bad don't know he can get good offer.. to survive.. to support.. "not" to regret what he choose..

omg.

I'm really getting confuse now... my job. my career. my future. I dunno what I want. *________*

How I wish I could start my business very very soon.. I wish I could start my "ideal" (**secret**) business. However capital idea many many many factor needs to be consider.

What I really happy is.. I been to Macao & HK with Dd, shopping, eat, gambling, relaxing for 6 days.

And, I been to Taipei for the main purpose of Mayday concert. Winter Taipei, nice weather, nice Taiwanese, nice food, and.. unforgettable Mayday concert! Also, I know new friends in Taipei! A warm and super nice family which had been taking care of me for y whole trip there.

Frankly, I really love Taiwan. Don't know why. probably mostly because of Mayday. But the place, the environment, the people, the food, the weather (although the air might be bit dirty..? ^^) etc etc... just make me really wanna stay there.. but.. Dd bit conservative lah.. don't think he can decide to give up everything here and start new life elsewhere. haix..

And, Xmas.. celebrate with Dd and have fun with bestie friend. And, New Year.. although not going anywhere but felt super satisfied just staying at home to watch TV live from Taipei as I can see Mayday on TV again. Yeah!

And, Mayday concert in SG. Never forget how I queue up to exchange for the concert ticket.. How early I go concert venue to queue up to get in to catch a good seat... and How amazing concert that Mayday had brought to us. And like little crazy fans to rush town and squeeze in the crowd for just to see my Mayday closely and snap snap snap photos! And queue up to get the autograph from Mayday, blessing guanyou and family and many many...

mmm...

happy thoughts, bad thoughts, worrying thoughts, confuse thoughts,... had make my mind getting busy recently.. too many things to worry, too many stuffs to settle, too many to think, too.....

I have to admit, I'm kind of kinda lazy person. I can't finish a task completely. My mind have a perfect plan and thought but however I didn't execute it. This has been my bad habit (super bad, I should say) for many years. I might have been wasting dunno how many f*** stupid years for achieve NOTHING. Sometimes, I really hate myself, hate myself being stupid, in ALL aspects.

I'm sure I'm not what I'm now if I have plan myself well and DO IT. I'm getting empty now. Don't know what my life goals now. everyday the same, eat sleep work. watching TV, surfing, TV surfing TV surfing.. stupid life right?

Year 2009, new life? might be.. but what I can confirm now is.. I had already wasted 8 days including today. 8 Jan2009. 8 DAYS!

江山易改，夲性難移。one's character is really hard to change. I start believing this..

ALL THE BEST? Please.. GIVE ME.. ALL THE BEST!!